Monday, July 20, 2009

Ragging- An Appraisal

Let me begin by saying that i dont associate to or encourage Ragging at colleges in any form, subtle or severe.Period. That said, this poem was the first i wrote during my BDS days. It started out during my Ragging at GDCH, Hyd, one day as i happend to mention poetry as a hobby, i was told i was been too flashy and was asked to come up with something of my own in a days time or be proven a braggart...... so on the 10th of february 1994, this one came to be.

With a throbbing heart, a wavering sense of anxiety

With the preconceived conceptions of the torture that ragging was

With all the experienced narrations from the Ragged

I entered college, hoping of God, I’d be spared by the demon.

And as the dreaded confrontation came, the demon threw me off my feet

Only to transcend to angelic dimensions and take me…

Into the warm embrace of acceptance.


And even as it ground me into the realms of its true self,

I got to realize that under its hideous mask……

Is the promise of friendship, of understanding, of advise.

Benign arms ever willing to guide and protect you.

And over the confrontation that was,

I’ve come across the clash of egos,

Those inexplicable moments of intimidation,

Of hilarious inquisitiveness, of unreasonable anger.


What it takes is a courageous soul and a tactful cruiser,

To ride these storms of realization that eventually and very surely

Drift you into the calm waters of camaraderie.

And as these wild winds of interaction between….

The Raggers and the Raggers-in-the=making ended…

Cognition dawned on me the farcical set up that Raggings all about.


What I thought would shred my integrity, my self esteem,

Only helped me gather and hold myself together

In getting to know what I am…..

Even as Ragging set out to tell my Seniors what I was.

The Living Dead!


This is a poignant tale, the seeds of which i cant seem to remember came from where, but were sown as i gather from the entry i made on the 25th of may 1995. But today i see it as this aged, massive and yet, strong tree of emotions that seems to hold the winds of contemplation and momentarily suspend them into genuine introspection.....i wonder......

He was born of the dark womb…..into poverty.

Lonely n frail….an unwanted child….a bastard.

The juvenile mother stared at her kin in helpless shame.

The baby’s hungry cries shooting daggers at her heart.

Her desperate tears of grief quenching the child’s thirst.

And when tolerance faded and the urge to live died,

She gave an affectionate peck to him…her child…

And kissed death to escape the heartache.

Leaving him in the Nature’s cradle.


And as the elements nurtured him to sense,

Life transformed into baseless agony,

Wrestling with the street dogs for a morsel of food in the trash,

With the chill of every drop of the pouring rain,

And as sense prevailed, it turned his humane heart callous and cold.

A question always throeing his mind…

Why had god provided entry into this world,

And then, unfairly dragged the life out of his living,

Left him lurking aimlessly in the hostile world.


So he grew, grew with anguish

With the scorching heat of each day questioning his existence

With the silence of each night screaming into his ears.

Soon desperation and hunger bred disgust and hatred

Despise for the crooked world around him….

Bent on seeing him wane.

But live he had to, to prove the World wrong.

And to live he had to survive a personal struggle,

And to survive the battle, shed all inhibitions and reason.


And thus, the World saw…. the birth of an enemy,

Created out of its atrocity and insensitivity.

He began to strike at the domineering aristrocrats….

Who had plenty yet, nothing to spare for the underdogs.

Who sucked the life out of the poor and needy…..

To add bricks to their bungalows of greed.

He began robbing them of what should have been his.

He mercilessly did them to death

Just as mercilessly as they had dragged passion out of his soul.

Each kill a step closer towards retaliation.

He was winning. He was breathing life, rejuvenated.


So, on one of his vengeful missions….

He killed in cold blood and unpityingly a rich couple in their house,

The blood alluring him closer to his obsessive victory….

And when the couples frightened little girl held him by his leg,

Unaware of his bearing….her parents’ murderer,

The moment stretched….

As time adamantly stood still.

For in the child’s poor innocent eyes, he could see….

The memories of his own childhood flashing back

The hunger….the insecurity….the desperation.

The sparkling tears in her eyes reminding him….

Of his only food, once, as a child.


Realization convinced him, he had now done to the child,

What the world had done unto him

In forcefully fighting and surviving the world,

He was drastically emulating it.

In fighting a personal struggle

He was wiping off identities of many an innocent.

The very thought sent fire running thru’ his body

….in his victory lay his inevitable defeat.


So, on one stormy night.…

With the sound of thunder muffling that of the gun shot.

With the lightening flashing his dead body,

The world rejoiced in jubiliation….

Even as another lone child trodded the dark streets,

The elements exhilarated at the prospects of another challenge

……..Challenge from the Living Dead!



Sunday, July 19, 2009

Loves never meant to stay

It is today that i rediscovered my old compilation of poems ( if all u generous people would give me huge allowances and consider these as poetry that is...) in an old and tattering book that i'd saved in a deep remote corner long forgotten. Was also frightened to see the pages withering and the ink fading....much like the memories that so invaluably were attached to them. It was then that i wanted to imprint them beyond the confines of my ageing "Mind", across some "Space" on the web, that could stand the ravages of "Time". Thus was born this blog.......and thus shall it continue.


This one i gather, i had written way back in the March of 1994. The naiive and the romantic surface....

I remember the times

We sat by the river….

We ran thru’ the waters….

We brushed off our sorrows….

We rushed thru’ the corn fields….

Lit golden by the dying Sun….

Sinking down the horizon.

But now its all over

You say that you are leaving

Oh! It hurts me so!

For, you were the one n only….

Who understood me, took me for what I am

But now u’ve to go

Just as we were growing….

Growing to be more than good friends

Now you say goodbye

And so will it be if it has to be.

For in your pleasure lies my deliverance.

If you see me in tears, I’ve every reason dear.

For with you, you are taking a part of me.

An invaluable piece of my heart that I thought belonged to me

And if you ever decide to come back

Remember I’ll always be here….Just for you…

I’ll remember the times

Playing in the back of my mind

All the love u gave me

Only then it will all be gone

Runaway by time, overshadowed by destiny

Like the sandcastle of our love

Giving in to the unruly waves of fate

As Time was envious of the true love we cherished…..

Lady, our love was never meant to stay.

Living in Black and White

This poem saw almost 3years pass by between its inception to completion! And to cut a long story short, it wasnt becos' i was working on it all that time, but, b'cos i wasnt workin on it at all.And so, many a poem of mine saw the light of the day much before this one did. Anyways...allow me to make a modest beginning from where it all started.....in my 10+2, Circa 1993........ You will find the prose or is it poetry? find greater maturity in structure as it ages in those 3+ years.....Ur comments r welcome one hundred percent!

Look at those people

Immersed are they in the seemingly

Never-ending ocean of affliction

The little child a stranger to any affection

With no one to care…

Is left helplessly in destitution

Look at them cry…

Look at them die.

Oh! Do look at the best of friends vie…

For the crumbs left by the passer-by.

The old woman stretches her pathetic feeble arms….

To receive those miserly alms.

Their dresses in rags all torn,

For ages, the same’ve been worn

Everyone who passes them is sorry,

But none gives it a thought or even worry.

For, they have their own selfish lives to care,

To stand up and fight for the deprived they don’t dare.

More n more miles in the journey of living

Unforeseen toil and unquenchable craving

Dreams of good food, shelter and family,

In reality, they shall never be.

And as the ailing mother’s tears wet her stillborn….

All her maternal longings get mercilessly torn.

Two souls born on the same day

But of their different fates what can I say?

While one goes to the Kindergarten’

The other tends to the arid garden.

While one sleeps in the warmth of his home,

The other shivers in the streets as the rains come.

Even as the power monger’s promises prove a fake…

They are forced to live life just for living’s sake.

No strength to even dream of an aim in life,

Each moment of vicious time in personal strife.

Their crippled life an eternal agony

Call it Times oppression or Fates felony.

It is not that we are not wary of the sight….

We shamelessly sleep tight at night,

Even as a derelict orphan roams the streets in plight.

Can’t we contribute just a little towards getting things right?

What for the money n what for the comforts…

When thousands of children’s lives are but parched deserts.

Why anyone isn’t genuinely bothered?

Is it that the humane heart has withered?

Its just that the stock of the situation has turned us so cold….

That we just can’t seem to get out of the mould.

GET OUT OF IT!

For, if u can live your own life in vibrant colors,

Cant’ you spare just a little for the black and white lives of others???